Lately I have been feeling frustrated. Frustrated that life doesn’t always go my way, frustrated that I feel like I am trying to do what’s right and failing. Frustrated that I feel I am not receiving answers to my prayers. Frustrated that I can’t do or be everything. But as I look back, I realize that I have had a very spiritual 6 months. I have witnessed the Lord’s hand in my life. I have felt the spirit touch my heart and lift me up when I couldn’t stand on my own. I have received answers, though they may not be to the questions I am pondering now. Answers to prayers pleading assistance and assurance have come.
Often times I do not understand why we are required to go through some trials. I know we need to learn and grow in ways that the Lord sees fit, but sometimes some things still don’t click. I know the lord has a plan for me – but sometimes I feel like He is obstructing the path as much as He is clearing it. However this week I have felt such a strong spirit. I have truly been blessed, and although I have not received the exact answers I am looking for, I have truly been comforted and at peace amidst my questions.
A lot of times I get caught up in the little things. I get caught in the trap of “someday I’ll have more time to…” fill in the blank with any of the following: actually study my scriptures, pray with more intent, serve others, be a better visiting teacher, sign up for things in the relief society, really focus on making the sabbath day holy, etc. Every time I think any of these things I am reminded of a phrase President Monson said long ago in conference when I was a teenager. He said, “Never put off for tomorrow what you can do today.” Those words have always stayed with me, though often times I do not heed the counsel. Yet I am still blessed.
Recently I have felt an abundance of my Savior’s love. Although I may not understand why or how I am supposed to go through these trials, I know that through it all I can turn to Him, and place those burdens on His shoulders, and He WILL share the load with me. I am grateful to know that I am not required to be perfect. My Savior has and will bridge the gap between who I am now and who I want to be if I can turn to Him. Words cannot adequately express the gratitude I have for the knowledge and blessing of this gospel. I am so grateful for the comfort I have received throughout my life, and especially recently. I have truly learned to rely on these words, “I never said it would be easy, I only said it would be worth it.”
This Song, His Love, by Jake Rau , is a beautiful tribute to the Savior. Just wanted to share it with you.
Sunday, March 6, 2011
His Love
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Thanks Car. Wish I would have seen that yesterday. Would have been a sweet sunday thing. Love you. Hang in there...I know you are. Sometimes it just really helps to write it all out and 'vent' a little to friends ya know!
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Carlie, this was exactly what I needed to hear. I was just sitting here reading your post and watching the video and totally crying :) Matt looked over and asked if I was okay. Haha Thank you for sharing the quote by President Monson. This is just what I needed!
ReplyDeleteI may not know exactly everything that is going on with you two (I am here if you need to share or vent) but know that we love you. Matt and I have asked ourselves that same thing many times. Life never works the way that we planned. We are about 7 years behind where we wanted to be right now, but things work out the way they do. Unfortunately for us it takes a lot of time and faith to figure out why. We love you guys!
ReplyDeleteI love your blogs. You are an inspiration to me. What an awesome daughter.
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